Thursday, May 31, 2012

My Prince

" No man can make me joyful or complete. Only you can, and you have God. I love you even if I never marry."
That was written in my Bible. And I truly meant that. God had been enough for me that I didn't have to get married to start living my life and being happy.
God was my source of peace and happiness and he was my life.

My desire was to marry a godly man and raise a family for God, but I was content and even willing to be single if that was God's will. I just wanted to live a life that pleased God, single or married.

With that being said, I started talking to the guy I would marry on Facebook. We had actually met at college. He had helped me a few times get snacks off the shelf for the after school kids. But I didn't really talk to him or like him. It was the right guy just not the right time. Of course, I didn't know he was God's will at the time. We started casually talking on Facebook and messaging each other off and on.
During that time we both were praying that if it wasn't God's will that our relationship wouldn't go any further than a friend.

It's kinda of hard to open up when you've been broken before by someone who wasn't God's will. I prayed many times while we were talking that God would just protect my heart. I didn't wanna give my heart away again and get hurt.

Robert was a great guy, everything that I had prayed for. On a side note, I think it is very important to pray for your future mate or for a spouse for your children. God will guide, lead, and direct but we must pray. Now back to Robert, he was someone I was growing fond of and each night we would talk on the phone to get to know each other better. Facebook alone wasn't enough to get to know each other and since we lived in different states, phone calls and letters was a good start.
We had started talking in June of 2009, and had visited each other in person a few times. God had confirmed in both of our lives that we were God's will for each other. And what a joyful day that was. The many years of praying were not in vain. God had answered in his timing. Sometimes a delay is not a 'no' it's just you have to be patient and wait for the answer. And Robert was worth waiting for.

I remember when Robert proposed. We were walking at the park and he had all of these boxes inside each other and each box represented something. I can't remember all that was said, but the part I do remember was him saying something like, 'I don't wanna walk behind you or in front of you I wanna walk beside you all the days of my life.' When he asked me to marry him, I laughed at him. I don't remember why I laughed but I did say 'yes'.

We were married on October 3, 2009. It's amazing to me because God's plan is far better than our own. I am so glad that I didn't just settle for some average guy, but that I waited for God's will. It truly makes a difference.
I am so thankful for my husband and I am truly blessed with a wonderful man.

If you are single, please wait on God. His timing is way better than what we could imagine. Just don't lose faith, and don't settle for less than God's best. On your wedding day, you will truly say it's been worth the wait. And it will be. Save yourself, every piece of yourself for that one that God has made you for. Don't let the devil's lies deceive you into thinking that dating around is innocent or even settling for any average guy is fine, because it's not God's way. God's way is best. Wait and one day your prince will come, and you too can testify of God's goodness and how it was all worth the wait.

A dream that seemed unreachable

My life and future was in God's hands. He had given me a dream of marrying a godly man called to preach and raising a family together. But that dream seemed so far away.

There were no suitable preacher boy's anywhere to be found or so it seemed. I trusted God to meet my needs on a daily basis but it seemed like my faith was growing dim in this area. It had seemed like God had forgotten about me. Other ladies around me had found their "prince" and were preparing to live out their dreams. My dream seemed so real, I could play it out in my mind. But when I looked in the face of my dream man his face was blank.

I was 25 years old and that just seemed so ancient to be single. I spent my days taking care of precious little babies. But the problem was they were other people's babies. I enjoyed caring for them and I had plenty of love to share among the nursery. But I'd often wonder while rocking a sleeping baby or playing with one if my dream of being a momma would ever come true.

It can be discouraging waiting for something to happen that seems so far away. When you are low or discouraged the devil likes to try to keep you in that state. It's hard to serve God when you are so focused on what you don't have rather than what you do have.

In Hebrew 13:5 (KJV) it says,
"Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee."

I had seen God work miracles in my life and meet needs that seemed utterly hopeless. And I knew that if I fully placed this area of my life in his hands and just go on and serve him, he'd work it all out in his timing.

I determined that I was going to live for Christ even if I never married or became a momma. God knew better than I did, and his plan was what I wanted not my own.

I wasn't going to fall for any guy that called himself a Christian. The devil's imposter's wore suits and ties too. I had given my heart to God for safe keeping. And I asked him to protect it from anyone who wasn't his will. And I knew he'd do just that. I didn't wanna give my heart away to so many guys that when Mr. Right did come along I only had a piece left to give him. Let's just say all the waiting, praying, and guarding was not in vain.

If you are in a period of waiting, whether it be waiting for Mr. Right, or a baby, or whatever it may be, don't lose heart. God's answers are never late. He always shows up right on time.

I'll explain in the next post how God worked to bring one of the dreams to pass, at least at that time. At the present time, all of my dreams have come true.